Friday, July 26, 2013

Emotional Preggy Mum

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Holla everyone,..pose ari ni? Me?..hehe dun asked when u already know the answer. Hari ni dah 25 Julai 2013, hari ke 16 Ramadhan and dah 18 hari aku berpantang. Ade lg 26 hari untuk aku berpantang. Feuuhh (lap peluh!).

Lame sungguh kan aku amik masa utk blog. Pe punye malas la aku nih..hehe. Sementara nak tunggu batu tungku tu masak and baby tido. So I better continue with the entry.

Hmm ok. Where should we start? Which part you wana hear first?...

I think better we go with the flow right??..Start from my extended EDD (Estimated Due Date) till where I am now. Is it ok? But it still will be segmented.

If u read my previous entry about Forty Weeks & Uno Day, I shared bout my pregnancy which baby not showing up on that day. Well everyone knows that when pregnancy has reached estimation of 36 weeks meant baby is ready to come out anytime soon. Some people said when 40 weeks plus mean u r overdue..but actually it's 42 weeks then only u r overdue. Some I heard delivered their babies on 45 weeks. Wat ever it is, we let the baby choose his date! << that's what I GBGM's fren told me. This is depending on mummy and baby health condition. You must monitor baby's movement every minute n hours.

Ok enuf of that, now let me share you on how emotional I'm when it comes to my extended estimated due date. It does stressed me a bit at the end of my pregnancy.

My estimated due date supposed to be on 25/6/2013 based on last menstrual period (LMP) which is on 18/9/2012. But when I think back, I'm TTC is on ??/10/12...I do shared this with Mr Raksaksa but I dun tell the medical staff about this. So the extended date could be based on my TTC date. Hmm ke my LMP should be later than my TTC date?...ok...hahahaha...if u understand this then u might be laughing at me..(extended edd kononnn!!...huhu)

When I reached 36 weeks, I started to get busy with the house. I make up the baby's room, sweep the house's floor, I mop it a few times, clean the kitchen n also the bathroom. I waited for the birth sign but nothing showed. Orang kate anak ke dua ni bleh jadi kuar awal ckit and ade gak yg cakap ikut history pregnancy before. Kalo ikut pregnant Nazhan dulu, lewat sehari. Tu pun after O&G swept membrane for 2 cm on my EDD, the next day baru branak.

Let me refresh my story with the time line...nampak nice ckit kan. Xde la pening2 nanti.

38 & 39 weeks - Did a 1 week check up with KPMC & KK (Klinik Kesihatan). Everything was fine, baby's move accordingly and mummy also in gud condition. Dr. gave me MC if I'm not feeling well, exhausted or too sleepy so I can rest at home. But I still showing up in the office. Sometime I feel bored if I just stayed at home. But I can't visit client like I always do.

40 weeks (25/6/13) - I believed my O&G has swept membrane for 1cm, coz VE was sooo painful for me. And he told me that, I was dilated 1cm. I'm happy coz I thought it will be like Nazhan's birthing story. Unfortunately nothing happened to me the next day at 41 weeks 1 day). Yes there is a brownish mucus show which I thought I will be in labor soon. I'm soooo frustrated! Then Dr cakap baby membesar dgn jaya nye. If by certain time and weight baby x kuar, he gave me option to induce or czer. Masa tu dah cuak, tp still calm becoz I'm not yet overdue. So i cakap ngan Dr, give me sometime or wait til the baby reach 42 weeks.

For those yg x faham, they said that I'm taking a huge risk to keep the baby till 42 weeks. 
1. If amniotic fluid turn to green then baby already eat the poop. Baby will get infection.
2. Baby's size could be big and the option is Czer, cant deliver normal.
3. etc.

Starting that day lah I agak meroyan! Emotional x bertempat, tp masih lg terkawal. Pepaham je lah. Dah lebiy 40 minggu tp baby x kuar2 lg. Tgk orang lain sume dah pangku baby. My baby still in tummy. Di hujung2 ni plak selera makan menjadi2, xleh nk control. Automatik berat baby pun bertambah. Hari-hari cakap ngan baby suh kuar. Tp baby wat duno je kicking2 kat dalam. Haiihhh lah anakkk...

Meanwhile, I tried so many natural way to induce labor. You can google for further info.
1. Eat something spice (mamak's curry, wasabi n etc)
2. Wash bathroom
3. Do housechores (sweep n mop the floor)
4. Use stairs (at home and office)
5. Walk a lot (I walk till my leg and my tummy cramps)
6. Raspberry Leaf Tea
7. Squat Exercise
8. Pineapple (Mr Rasaksa Pineapple juice is the best!)
8. Make Love

Bertambah emosi ms 41 weeks check up (2/7/13), bile Dr kata on 5th should admitted. Mean here he scheduled me for induce or cser. It's up to me to decide. Masa ni plak i g check up sorang2. Mr Rasaksa balik lambat. After check up I terus nangis kat situ. I dun care if people see me crying at that moment. And I rasa frust giler cam orang break off or maybe even worst. Masuk dalam kete hubby calls and asks bout my check up. I controlled my voice and after that i cried even louder. So repeat again all the natural ways hopefully birthing process comes naturally to me. Some of friends in GBGM did gave me a support, 'let the baby decides when to come out, let him choose the date'.

Seriously masa Dr suh I serah diri tu I dah mentally break down. I rs sedih sangat2 x dapat natural birthing. Maybe not 100% but at least I dont have to be induced or worst, CZER. Some of it mybe think it's not a big deal la induced or czer as long as baby n mummy selamat. Tp kalo unnecessary czer cam mane? I buried in my mind (set it) that Birthing is a Natural Process. Wish with Allah called, it would be mine!

Other than natural way to induce labor, I also do something in spiritual. Pray to Allah, Solat Hajat, Solat Taubat and even mintak ampun kat sesaper yang i ade wat salah. I did asked my husband if I did something that I might hurt him previously. He said a lot, huhuhu...But any specific he couldnt remember and he said it was nothing (he did makes a joke of it). But I seek for his forgiveness, since i might be something that had stop the process. We never know right! I did the same thing to close people around me. And most my friends in FB also did Doa for me. Thank you!

On 4th tu supposed I g check up kat KK, I avoid. On 5th I should admitted, also I lari. I just stayed at home and do anything that can induce labour and also cont on wekens. Tp hari sabtu tu, nurse private call my husband. Wakakakaka..pe hal call die? Nak suh hubby pujuk suh admit ke?..hahaha. Mr Rasaksa asked me to call at least inform them. They said they wont responsible for any bad risk. Nevermind I said, it will be my responsibility for anything happen to my baby.

After did all that, on 8 Julai around 5am the pain that I've waiting is there. Rs different from the 1st pregnancy. I terus rasa nak teran tp I xtau bukaan dah brapa. So to be safe i just practise breathing technique utk ease the pain. And BIG THANK YOU & GRATEFUL to ALLAH, I have dilated 5cm. I is menangis dalam toilet u ollss, ms tu nurse dah masuk ubat bontot suh berak. Around 12.05 pm lahir lah baby boy 42 weeks tuh. Birthing story will be soon. Rasa bersyukur giler lah, luckily la menjadi gak natural way tu. Thanx husband..eh?!

Actually I emosi ms tu bukan pe,

first bile dr cakap pasal induce/czer I dah terbayang kesakitan semasa process tu nanti. Ooouuchh! And czer plak penjagaan selepas tu agak renyah compare orang bersalin normal. Cume sakit jahit kat bawah tu je lahhh. Mula die bagi i tunggu until 42 weeks, but 41 weeks cakap lain plak. Die cakap if baby besar kemungkinan utk normal rendah, so kene czer. Which i dun buy to what ever he told me but he did scared me with other story..bla bla bla..so die suh i serah diri, still bleh normal tp kene induce utk dilate more bukaan.

2ndly is budget! Yes $$ because this time is fully support from hubby. Kalo dulu ex-comp hubby tanggung and we not even kuar sesen pun. But this time if czer, we have to spent more than 5G. Oowwhh dear. This part I cried a lot. Tak sampai hati nk suh hubby bayar byk tu. I know he's being nice enuf by letting me deliver at private. So nape I mesti nk susah2 kan die lg. Ye la..ade stgh orang, if u can save a lotttt y go to private. Hosp gomen pun same. But as for me, it's such a big different. Walaupun my mum is a gov servant before, ntah laaa.

Most of all is I emosi because penat dah carry perut ke hulu ke hilir. Still driving, still g office, still do house chores n etc. Tgk FB, most of people I know which their due date is later than me dh pegang baby. N lagi satu when people asking me, eh x branak2 lg ker? eh biler ur due date? huuuhhh stress tau dak...Rs cm nak jerit stop asking me when,...baby will pop out when he wants too!

But thank to u my dear frens. You know who you are..who supports me through out my pregnancy and birthing journey.

So next will be my so called natural birthing process HIS way. InsyaAllah~

Ps: sorry my story a bit tunggang langgang as i need to stop few times for my confinement process and also melayan 2 orang anak lelaki.

3 baby's note!:

SyimaSyaz said...

alhamdulillah.... akhirnya. btl kan zihan, natural way is the best tapi kalau ditakdirkan czer gak.. hmm apa blh buat kan.tapi natural birth ni sakit masa beranak je, pastu dah boleh senyum......hehe...

nanti kalau 2nd baby aku macam kau, baby overdue ke.. aku akan re-call balik cerita kau ni.jgn menyerah kalah... hahhaha...

Zihan Zamberi said...

SyimaSyaz: Of course la..zaman tok nenek moyang dulu2 mane de czer bagai kan..n baby plak sume kecik molek je. Zaman skrg ni baby giant2 bagai..hehe..but if we learn n understand more about birthing InsyaAllah we can avoid it. Balik pada ketentuan Allah. I x kata cser x bagus, ari tu pun kire i berserah je. Dh malas nk pk..huhu. Nanti ko relate entry ni ngan future entry plak..ko akan lebiy faham! =)

ettyzukhair said...

errr...tq husband..for the helps..i know what u mean sis!!! ahaha...kak kite rase cm nak terberanak sgt2 dh ni...tp cm awal sgt lg..bru nak masuk 35w..huhu..but siyes ni mmg xtipu sume rase cm kat bwh dh je..but still xde sign of labor..contraction pon xde..braxton hicks pon xde rse lg ni..

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